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ANGUISH OF DESIRE

A short story

ONYEUKAZIRI JUSTIN Nnaemeka

From one year to marry the memories of youth are always persistent in his mind. He got out of bed and sat on the bed near the pillow on the bed. She took the pillow and put it on your lap, put his elbows on the pillow and head in the hollow of your palms. The room was very quiet and was with loneliness, a condition very good to wonder. She was lost in amazement. She wondered if you could give life to young people after marriage. He recalled the City has yuppies, jokes, crack and young hits the night. This aroused a kind of anger in it that occurs when an individual meets terrible existential truth of life. The traditional demand for married women with tie wraps seems a burden to her, because she says weighing more than oneself. Only a year after marrying, she had enough to attend this family reunion or gathering of people. She passionately hated meeting with women worn and old attitudes in family meetings. She is still tired of seeing the face of a man in her life. "Every time Chuks, na wa oh!" He exclaimed. Opened a new chapter in his astonishment. She was wondering if it is that beautiful Ijeoma men can not but admire at the same time passing. As if time became flesh and slapped him, she said, 'Hey! It is 7.15. He realized that these thoughts had taken him from 05 am.

Jumping out of bed as a person who unknowingly Sat thorns, ran to the bathroom to wash. While she was doing-she was thinking if I could do at 8.00 am, instead of Ikeja real work was going. He doubted if she remembered the usual deductions in the barracks, Alakija and especially in the First Gate, Maza Maza.

As she ran from the house to get Okada to the bus stop he realized he had spent only ten minutes to take his bath and makeup. What she had never Indeed, even as a student at the University of Nigeria Nsukka.

Arriving at the office she looked at his gold wristwatch, a friend gave as a gift during wedding, which was minute eight and ten. When he realized that the Accountant General, Mr. Bolaji in the accounting department was yet to come, exhaling hot air. Although There was some staff around the office before his arrival, has not received any questions from them as they were under her position. The main reason for their joy was that she was employed only three months ago. And Nigeria is not a place to play with one's job. She was lucky to be employed in this company after services of his youth. She new very well that it was that she was very intelligent and hardworking, but because she played very well his wing as a professional footballer. Using what she has like all women known-up, he enlisted in the top eleven.

As I sat in his office trying to compare the balance sheet worked at night, realized that her husband would run in Enugu today and most likely on board a night bus since he did not travel with your car.

Chuks had traveled for three days for a special mission as the manager of the praxis Nigeria Limited. Chuks rose to the position of a manager within two years of employment because The philosophy of success of what he calls "the three Ds." He said the three-D represents, diligence, determination and discipline. It is known in workplace as a man who preaches and lives this philosophy. He always knows to say "if you are a devout worshiper of God or not, this philosophy is the principle success, since it is the natural law of success on the ground. Because there is no successful man or woman who did not live or do not live by these principles. In fact, even animals and plants due to this principle for success in that activity. "He challenges the" born again in your workplace that "these principles is also the secret of success, even to enter the kingdom of God. For holiness, the Bible says that is the sine qua non to see God is the result of diligence, determination and discipline. "

Chuks is a tall man with a tall well built, dark complexion, and each of their body parts in proportion adequate size to accommodate the other parts that make your whole body. This makes for a test of the sinlessness of God in creation. In fact, he was very handsome that many girls are willing to do anything to win her love. Unfortunately, no time to gallivant with the ladies as the men who had succubus seems cursed to live in looking for whores to screw.

At its completion, he was anxious to recall that the house was completely neglected and there was nothing prepared for Chuks for food, even snacks in the refrigerator. She was restless and anxious because her husband is not a guy who hates senseless mess as the way a devout Christian abhors sin, and do not joke with the stomach, especially when it comes to travel. The thought of repeatedly had told Chuks should get a house served as assistant as a palliative for comfort, a springboard for the defense.

It was exactly half past ten, when Chuks came home. His trip was humble, due to power failure that hit the bus climbed. To avoid stomach problems common in the bus while traveling at night, do not eat any food. So they became more hungry as a lion hungry and weak like a caged dove. Took his own key to the house of your suitcase. Attempting to open the door he realized that the door was not removed. "So Ijeoma not hit the door?" He asked. When he entered, he found the living room and two bed rooms neglected and all the things scattered as a polygamous household with many children. Looking around the room, he asks, 'How could Ijeoma out of this house like this? Definitely no response as it was the only person in the house. Without even undressing went to the kitchen, open the closet of everything, but there was no food prepared for him. Patiently navigated the refrigerator eyes. He saw nothing, not snacks and drinks. Furious, he shouted: "This is unbearable." He added, "I think this crap is doing too. I have become the other side of my paycheck enough to Ijeoma.

Still full of anger in your mind and heart seething with rage, he decided to visit a friend family to cool-off. To avoid giving an upper emotion to reason.

At the time he returned at night, Ijeoma was back. And she had cleaned the house, cook some fried rice and fried some Irish potatoes and chicken. This was actually Chuks favorites. Chuks opened the door. His face remained stone as Olumo rock. "Good night, dear, welcome," he greeted her. No response. "I'm sorry for what happened baby. Please forgive other once last time. I promise I will not repeat again. "He said." How many times do you want to forgive you? I think it's even more than seventy times seven ", doing an impression of the Bible." What is really your problem Ijeoma? He asked. "For many chances to leave the house without closing the door, do not keep the house clean and tidy, even bothered to cook or carry snacks in the refrigerator, as it began to work back late, after seven night. You've developed the courage to yell at me. In fact, they name, name? I think we will consider in pieces, even if it was God who joined. He added. The last statement struck a harder line in the heart of Ijeoma and caused anger too. Then exploded. "What you mean is I am keeping quiet? I can not take all these insults from you. How many times have I suggested that to help get a house. I can not tolerate this anymore. If we want divorce. But remember I'm pregnant. "I'm pregnant Hearing hit as hard as if listening for the first time, while she was pregnant eight months.

It was not really Chuks Ijeoma not love, it just was not emotionally and psychologically prepared to engage in a man, as his wife. For her still feel that I had to feel some of the other men. For she is a woman a victim of capitalist slavery, subjugating a bland and frustrating adventure. A Although Chuks fell in love before marriage, but she never intended to marry at that time. But he did, because most of his friends were getting married. Yielding to pressure Group is a philosophical aberration. But who can deny that realism exisistential? Only a fool or a woman.

That night every one of them did not take dinner. Went to the room separately. Chuks came first. Usually walk together to the room after dinner. Chuks undress himself, had his bath and put on his blue pajamas, white cotton collar. He slept in front of the milk on the skin of the wall on one side if the bed. Ijeoma came into the room already her white evening dress transparent. She prefers that because of her pregnancy because she always complains about the heat. The transparency of its white evening dress reveals all body parts Funny, from the chest to the lower abdomen. Never mined because no one was in the room, but her husband. Well before dawn actually resolved their conflicts from the previous night. And to seal the conflict resolved that were lost in a network of indescribable love, when she crossed her legs.

For four weeks after the last conflict of the couple had, for the first time there were no fights or even annoying. There seems to be a ghostly quiet in the house. But one thing has been disturbing Ijeoma and thought aloud, "This may be the cause of my problem with Chuks. She added," because I find the prince in sending round match of the former manager branch of this company. "She meant the employer. She continued," my heart is almost broken by him when he planted some beautiful words of love in my heart. "Ijeoma From the day he met the Prince had responded positively to the well three times your dinner together. These Gone are the days when he returned home late after 20:00.

Ijeoma always Prince said that she loves him passionately passionate, when more Prince expresses that he is lucky to be cut by the love spell that destiny had prepared for the two to be found.

Prince is actually a family he is personally wealthy and rich and desperate struggle for a political position in his state. But it is a cross screwdriver and excellent teacher. If Prince is not that just take his time he was screwing and unscrewing Ijeoma. It is always said to himself, "I want things to mature and Ijeoma be a matter of weeks." Between Things to mature is Ijeoma put to bed.

It was Saturday morning at about 4:00 a.m.. Ijeoma was rolling in bed, crying and holding her stomach. Chuks suddenly woke up and asked, 'What is it? " "My stomach," he said. The approach that had it, and asked: "What is wrong with your stomach? This time she did not reply but kept screaming louder. Chuks quickly took her to hospital and maternity home along Badagry express way. Chuks At the time he returned in the afternoon of shopping at a mall in Festac, Ijeoma had given birth to a set of twins, a boy and a girl. Chuks Ijeoma took home happy after cleaning the hospital bills and taking into account any signal midwives as a form of gratitude.

Ijeoma Chuks helped obtain maternity leave of three months. After eight days the name of the twin, and Nnamdi Nnenna, after a long debate with the suggestion of Chuks that each of them should have any other name as the name of your pet. As the weeks passed the children grew up healthy and strong. And all this while Chuks denied any assignment to travel at your place of work in other to stay closer to Ijeoma and children.

As the morning dew, the maternity leave Ijeoma was over and was very happy to return to work. But the joy was evident that was not working she loves or she has the interest of the company in mind, but because of opportunities to visit the Prince. Although he loves both, but any time is the prince, she remembers nothing in this world, but the prince.

Prince has completed all his travel documents to travel to the states in which all family members and friends are waiting to witness his marriage to a girl through Nigeria and half of America. The prince had proposed to this girl I was about six months. All these plans were never disclosed to Ijeoma Prince. He maintains secret on others to consummate his relationship with Ijeoma, after which fly, and never see or hear again Ijeoma.

Today happened to be the time and matured Prince had been waiting to hit Ijeoma. He had already arranged an appointment with Ijeoma Badagry in a hotel near the beach. At 15:30, left his place Ijeoma work and boarded a bus two miles, got out and climbed back goes directly to Badagry. When the bus arrived Iyana-oba bus stop listening to travelers Park motor was screaming at the top of their voices, said: 'I went, I was here, something within her she "go home!" Continued to return home twice are crying. "He stroked her most when the voice said," no final Chuks take lightly if he is aware. "The stop Iyana-Oba bus passed the bus and approached the door Lasu, got up and called the attention of the driver, I want to see. "Before the driver notify the driver of the mini-bus she said again: "Do not worry continue."

At 17:30, the prince was waiting at the hotel. He had already paid for a room in which is wrapped after eating and drinking. Fifteen minutes later Ijeoma. At that time the prince was standing before a dark blue door of the hotel building. He hugged and kissed her forehead. Then he crossed his right hand around his neck, while she was crossing the hand around his waist and working in the hotel. While they were eating and drinking Ijeoma maybe drank enough wine to increase its value to suppress all feelings of guilt. In the hotel room, which is very strong, with a red flower designed brown carpet, a movable bed width and a large thick mattress, a closet with mirror. They again filled with great desire for each other. Ijeoma lay in bed staring at the ceiling, his hands outstretched in ninety degrees to your torso and legs open V-shaped Prince sat on the edge of the bed, looked at Ijeoma and said, "Your presence is enkindling a fire in my heart and your beauty is stoking the fire in flames. She replied: "Your eyes are sewing wounds in my heart and your touch is to heal the wounds." He leans over and kissed her forehead, nose and lips in succession. After he undressed. Then he helped her undress. Both were in the hard bed. Both were transfigured and taken on a new planet discovered through night.

All this time, Chuks had been struggling to keep calm individual. They have been crying since morning. They refused to eat anything, even for drinking water. They needed nothing more than breastfeeding. It was exactly 21:30 on the alarm clock on the wall Chuks against the two in her two charity. Chuks lost patience and decided to beat Ijeoma after the divorce if she goes back. He said, 'this bitch you better not come back to this house, because I definitely will to kill. "The boiling anger kept him and said, 'How could pig, daughter of a starving old-dog be so insensitive to flirt with a man just three months after giving birth to a set of two. "Chuks was aware of what was happening in the hotel by Ijeoma close friend had seen a man enter hotel room without Ijeoma know. Chuks immediately called on the phone and told him everything and asked to come to the hotel Chuks too if he thinks he is joking.

In the last ten minutes of ten p.m. Ijeoma came through the door was not removed. As she came before he could say anything, Chuks shouted in anger "that this bitch you think you are going and where you come from, have you finished your fun at the hotel in Badagry. With these words, Ijeoma was sure he was definitely aware Chuks of their affair. She immediately thought of what to do as Chuks went to the room to put Nnamdi in bed, because he was sleeping. Like Chuks out room to the living skin furious Ijeoma, Ijeoma Nnenna had already in his arms, ran from the house because she was sure that Chuks was determined to kill her.

After three months, Ijeoma not return the baby, then after the sixth month when Chuks not see Nnenna, decided to live his life with Nnamdi. Chuks was determined to give the best training Nnamdi any parent can give your child and the right of the primary school days Nnamdi his father had been introduced into the world of philosophers, thinkers and scholars. Nnamdi Chuks also disclosed to the power and mystery of printed materials, literature of all disciplines. Nnamdi also learned the art of listening to the news and reading newspapers, magazines and newspapers in many academic disciplines.

In twenty-three, and was licensed Nnamdi in Law from the University of Ibadan and had graduated from the Faculty of Law. Without doubt, Nnamdi became a very bright and intelligent lawyer, a handsome young chap. During school days as a student Nnamdi had no time for girls her father had always warned that the easiest thing that could ruin lives a student's academic young man is woman. This notice was to prevent girls because they do not want anything to disturb their studies. Not that he was afraid of girls or do not have the urge to drive or otherwise, because he was a born again Christian.

A year later, Nnamdi began her master's program at the University of Nigeria, Nsukka. It was during the completion of his master program, which Nnamdi decided it was time for him to start learning the art women, it would not be a Catholic priest.

A week before graduation Nnamdi was invited by one of his boys to a party at Enugu Campus the city of Enugu. At the party, despite the hot holding, dancing, eating and drinking, Nnamdi was found absolutely attracted to a girl. Nnamdi was uncomfortable for nothing like this had happened to him. He called his friend, Tony. "Tony, please come, I tell you something." Tony was the girl who was dancing with and was to Nnamdi. "Nnamdi, is anything the matter?" Tony, is that it is this strange feeling in me to that girl. "He pointed to a girl sitting one close to another girl talking to her boyfriend. The girl was wearing a sleeveless dark blue and white nylon body bare hug jeans top and black pants that stuck your body. Her hair was neatly braided and beautiful. All this with the face makeup that had just added to her natural complexion, made her beautiful and attractive aggressive. Tony Nnamdi asked "Are you in love with her?" Nnamdi said anything before, Tony added "falls for her, she is a pretty girl. "Nnamdi then said 'I I've never had this treaty strong desire for a girl in my life. "Tony said," may be this is really created for you.

When completed party, Nnamdi summoned courage and went to the girl. He walked towards two girls were about to leave the game room and said, "please forgive me, pointing the girl with fair skin. "I can have a word with you?" Nnamdi said. She said, 'okay, but quickly, you can see my friend waiting for me. "Nnamdi was presented to the girl, telling him his name and academic qualifications and their profession. She said," My name is Gertrude and I am a graduating student of business administration at the campus.

In the case of its introduction, she began to feel strongly Nnamdi drawn. She agreed to visit Nnamdi at his home in New Heaven in the city of Enugu.

For nearly three months, while Nnamdi was trying to collect all documents of the university, its relationship with Gertrude every day was very intimate. They visited each other in turns, but Gertrude is visited more from Nnamdi alone. Some of the occasions when they are together, especially in the stillness of the cool nights they kissed, romance, and caressed. Nnamdi remained in Enugu for a a year because of some court cases which had to handle. Nnamdi Gertrude had always helped and was always willing to help in everything I needed.

One Saturday, Gertrude visited Nnamdi to stay the weekend. In this great visit, had been thinking about how to express their gratitude to Nnamdi by every gesture of love to her. Since then, she really has no money, and even if he had, Nnamdi is already comfortable. She decided to establish herself, body and soul Nnamdi and spirit.

After dinner that night they both went to the waiting room each as strong as if the kidnappers are lurking. Entering room, Gertrude postpone bright yellow light on the light and dark green, then sat on the bed. The two almost simultaneously began to feel a desire boiling inside as if they were separate entities, but one soul. Gertrude had said Nnamdi and while eating I had something for him that night. Nnamdi foot Gertrude direction while removing her earrings, necklaces and watches. The fire continued to grow Nnamdi, who never knew when he said: "I'm pretty consumed watching. "And she said, very calm voice:" I am almost frozen to cool the fire. "As she spoke she was naked her clothes. She removed top of spaghetti and threw it on the chair near the bed. He turned and looked at Nnamdi and said: "I am all yours and all you see is yours." Nnamdi could not pronounce any words. Gertrude smiled and said "we feel free, tonight will be the best night of our history." Before the new, which had drawn from his short and his shirt.

He awoke the next morning each complains that the night was too short. As they finished their breakfast in the morning, Nnamdi Gertrude looked and said, 'If you do not mind a question. " She said, 'No, I would not. "Even with a feeling proceeded exciting, "the way we performed yesterday evening that seems to be at home with her. "Then suddenly, as if he did not mean to finish in his mind asked, "was his first time? His countenance changed. When she is still waiting for an answer, he said," no. "Then he added "I do not like to remember that not even talk about them. They were horrible experiences in my life." His last statement will be most interested did not mainly because of love not as a lawyer. Then he took her hand and said, 'talk to me you are. "Now, he said, 'okay let me talk. "She continued," I was deflowered when he was twelve years old, by my uncle, the last born in my mother's family. Since my mother is rare in the house, asked to stay with me. Almost every night he goes to some of his friends for porn movies. At first it looked at only after to force me to enter the room and read my books. But then I started asking to see movies with him. So one night my mother was not, after having finished watching a porn movie from nine to about 23:45 I went to bed before him. Até just a piece of the sheath that covers the body from the chest to thigh and as he usually does with anything under the wrapper. At twelve o'clock came into my room, asking who likes to sleep with me. I thought it meant sleeping in the same bed with me, I changed to make room for him. Then he began stroking his neck and groping her hand on my jacket, caressing my thighs. I asked him to leave, I want to sleep and do not like what he is doing. When he realized I was not cooperating, tore open my container, and forced to me. "Nnamdi, I had been listening intently as the judge hearing a case, shouted "this is a violation and a crime ...". Meant that the punishment for the crime of rape, when she continued, "after they screwed me battered me around my genitals, I felt pain in my groin and bled to next day, I even suffered from vaginismus for about three weeks. "Even before Nnamdi asked if there was any other experiences, he continued," second time was last year after my third year exams. Before the tests of two teachers in my department took an interest in me and demanded I love them. When I told them I can not, the two teachers told me without losing the words I do not know if I can definitely not talk courses. And these courses were my classes main. Most of my friends advised me to give, it was not the first and definitely not the last, which is no longer a problem in universities in Nigeria. Since I was not willing to leave the courses that I followed my friends and my teachers gave me advice in both mate on the same day in his office. "Nnamdi rose from his seat, hit the dinner table and said "these are not just aberrations, but abominations." He added, "This is crime and I have to take." But Gertrude suggested should forget the past and focus on the present. In conclusion, he said, "the way we performed last night he praised as a wonderful and professional I'm not a whore, but I learned about the pornography that he had seen. "

Three weeks later Gertrude visited Nnamdi. And after discussion, she told Nnamdi 'my Bloom was selected. "He said, 'What do you mean by that." It became clear, 'I'm pregnant. "Before she arrived, she had already made up his mind to come out. But it was a surprise to see her smiling face and when he said," that is my baby. "

That same day was the Nnamdi had decided to propose to Gertrude. So, he ran to his room pulled a white rose flower with three green leaves on a stem. Inside the petals there was an engagement ring. He gave her the flower. As he admired, who had his right hand, took the ring flower and said: "Gertrude followed the mine and be the mother of my children." Without saying anything he pointed with his finger for the ring and hugged him.

Two final Nnamdi weeks with his father, Mr. Chuks, already in his fifties mother decided to visit Gertrude from Gertrude said his mother told him that his father had died when she was four months old.

Gertrude and her mother had reported on the visit of Nnamdi with his father. His mother did not leave that day because I was happy waiting suitor his daughter and father in law to be. Gertrude had finalized all yum-yum sought to have lunch with their guests. He wore the traditional dress of the best. She could not help sit when he spent two o'clock the time is waiting for his guest to come. At half past two, there was a knock at the door. Gertrude ran to the door. Father greeted Nnamdi, the "good afternoon sir." Mr. Chuks said "good morning how are you 'then put out his hand for receive handshake Nnamdi father. After she hugged Nnamdi. Meanwhile the mother Gertrude was adjusting something in his room. Gertrude ran to the room his mother to inform her about the presence of her boyfriend and her father. The sit Nnamdi and his father were sitting supported the entrance to the room of the mother Gertrude. When he left immediately his face was radiant with a mocking smile to show how happy he was. mother Gertrude was almost a carbon copy of Gertrude and she was in her fifties. Gertrude began the introduction. She began with the introduction of Nnamdi. Media while Mr. Chuks was looking for the mother Gertrude deeply as if he had known before. "Mom, meet lawyer Nnamdi Chukwu. As mentioned Nnamdi Chukwu and was about to enter his father, mother Gertrude winced his face when he held Chukwu. At that time Mr. Chuks recognized without doubt and the conviction that the mother was Gertrude Ijeoma. Mr. Chuks court and said, 'Wait a minute looking and pointing Gertrude's mother said, 'Is not that bitch Ijeoma Okeke insensitive. Boiling with rage, shouted, this is a complete abomination. He walked out of the home. Nnamdi and Gertrude could not understand what was happening. They were standing near each other in an agony of desire, stoned amazement. While Ijeoma, mother Gertrude was confused with his hands covering his face.

About the Author

Justin N. Onyeukaziri is a Nigerian born July 7 198. He is a philosopher and a theologian and a writer.

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